Category Archives: Choices

Naked Tree

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It would seem funny that I now realize something: my life is like a tree. It has so many ups and downs. So many obstacles and if am not strong enough, I will surely give up. I admire this particular tree outside my house though it stands alone, it does not lose hope because after the treacherous and frigid winter season, it will become alive again.

When I moved here in my current residence, I never really understood the meaning of living alone. I’ve always wanted to live alone, by myself, away from my siblings and family. I still haven’t experience living alone because I always wanted to live with my family. There will come a time that I will move away from home. I wonder when it would happen but I always knew deep in my heart that I will move away and live alone with someone.

So now, as I am admiring this tree outside I feel a little bit nostalgic about the thought of moving away someday and leaving my family behind. Too many memories. But just like trees, I must learn how to move on and accept changes.

photo taken: 11-14-07 *idotmatrix*

If

If I say that I am honest with every little thing that I do would you even dare to believe what I mean to say? If I suddenly perish amongst lost souls searching for the true meaning of this cycle we people call life, will you even care that I exist? If I bluntly and selfishly ignore all these words that are raging through my head and waiting to burst some time soon, will you even have enough courage to decipher the mysteries inside? If my world will suddenly crumble and lost its meaning, will you even think that I was once yours?

If I knew that I would be doubting my existence now, I wouldn’t mind being born again and when it happens, I will be truly grateful over and over again that I have met you. But people changed. Time changed. Every little thing changed. Seasons changed. And I, too have changed. I am rambling not because I am just another inker but because I care.

I care because I am letting you go…