Random Quote 2-6-08

“Our most basic instinct is not for survival but for family. Most of us would give our own life for the survival of a family member, yet we lead our daily life too often as if we take our family for granted.”

                                                    -Paul Pearshall-

I happen to read this meaningful quote on my sister’s “mini calendar” (Daily Calendar 2006) sitting on my computer desk. I have so much stuff piled up on my desk that I sometimes get overwhelmed with all the unnecessary clutter.  Yesterday, I did a little bit of “cleaning up” on my desk and I was about to throw away the mini calendar. Knowing myself, I would just carefully read things over and over before I would finally decide to shred every piece of paper that I have on my desk. I am glad that I didn’t because I actually love reading quotes and reflect on what I read.

I grew up with my siblings together with a bunch of cousins. Most of my cousins that I grew up with are married and have their own family now yet I still missed all the good and bad times of my childhood. I learned a lot about myself since I started living here in the States. I become more independent that I sometimes think that I can always conquer anything on my way. My independence has its pros and cons, too. It’s hard for me to ask for help when I needed one and I feel invalid if I do. I feel weird depending on anyone especially my family. No one has ever call me selfish before but I feel that I am becoming one. Is it just my way of thinking or am I really becoming selfish?

I hope not…..