Naked Tree


It would seem funny that I now realize something: my life is like a tree. It has so many ups and downs. So many obstacles and if am not strong enough, I will surely give up. I admire this particular tree outside my house though it stands alone, it does not lose hope because after the treacherous and frigid winter season, it will become alive again.

When I moved here in my current residence, I never really understood the meaning of living alone. I’ve always wanted to live alone, by myself, away from my siblings and family. I still haven’t experience living alone because I always wanted to live with my family. There will come a time that I will move away from home. I wonder when it would happen but I always knew deep in my heart that I will move away and live alone with someone.

So now, as I am admiring this tree outside I feel a little bit nostalgic about the thought of moving away someday and leaving my family behind. Too many memories. But just like trees, I must learn how to move on and accept changes.

photo taken: 11-14-07 *idotmatrix*



One of the things that I am not particularly fond of during the holiday season is when I get a bunch of unwanted catalogs from different companies. They have all of these “sweet words” written on their catalogs, offering endless “great deals” to unsuspected buyers. I rarely purchase anything from mail catalog because it is hard to return items and if I call their 1-800 number, I usually spend 15 to 30 minutes waiting for someone to pick up my call and hear my complaints. And if someone from their customer service would pick up and I hear a voice which I think usually sounded like someone from outer space, “Tank you pore calling, how can I helppp yew?” Gosh! Can I just speak with an “American” please? Usually they don’t get what am I trying to convey so my blood pressure will rise up…enough for Krakatoa to erupt.

Also, in this picture, it says that this will be my “final catalog.” Hello! It’s not like I made a request for them to send me their god-awful catalog! The visibility of the little sticky note on the catalog is not very clear since I am only relying on my camera phone but anyway, here’s what the text say:

           FINAL CATALOG: We won’t bother you with unwanted catalogs….We’d rather save paper and trees. So this could be your last issue. Please order today if you wish to receive future issues. IF YOU WANT NOT, WE’LL WASTE NOT.

Hahaha! Are they being sarcastic here? Or were they just threatening me to order something? I was hoping that they would stop and I thought they did..finally…stop.. sending me catalogs but alas here it comes again! Another stupid catalog. What ever happened to “we’d rather save paper and trees?” Ha! Practice what you preach!

Oh well…guess I just have to ignore and throw their catalogs. Bye bye catalog-phobic!

Wonderfully Blind

Wonderfully Blind

I wonder when this ever
complicated world
of ours will suddenly crumble and crush
your will of living,
will your sufferings be forgotten?

I wonder when you
woke up this morning and honk
your car in earnest,
did you even think that you are
not alone?

I wonder when I phoned you
yesterday were you even
aware that I called?
Were you even listening
To my little voice and wonder
That I too, exist?

I wonder why your name
pops up to mind
as I am writing my thoughts?
Silly thoughts you may say
and I disagree my friend,
because you are blind.

*idotmatrix* 11-13-07

All worked up

I haven’t been blogging lately. I know that and I am aware of that fact. There is no excuse actually. It’s not because I am being lazy but I have been working like a mad woman for the past four weeks. There are so many paper works that needs to be done at work but not enough people to do the actual job. Self pity, perhaps? That’s how I feel, at least.

I am not actually complaining but I really missed all the good-and-not-so-good-times I usually have during my two days off. But not lately. I have to work 6 days a week (whoa!) with not enough time for some relaxation. My boss has been firing her people lately and I don’t exactly know what is going on her complex brain. She just keeps on firing people and not hiring back up! So yeah, I am stuck with all the work that is usually the job for five people! Ouch!

I had a terrible day yesterday. Yeah, Veteran’s Day and I heard it’s supposed to be a “holiday.” Anyway, I don’t wanna keep on venting how terrible my day was but I could definitely assure you that I had a blast at work. Since it’s Tuesdays @ Blockbuster and I just had the sudden urged to rent movies. Sort of a “movie therapy” for me, to release my stress. I haven’t seen any good movies lately because I simply don’t have any extra time to spare. I plan on watching them this week. I’ve rented 9 movies thus far and just finished watching the Transformers and Shrek 3. I love the Transformers! What an awesome movie! It gave me a bit of an headache ‘coz for once I thought my whole world we’re spinning spirally. Fantastic graphics! Yes, Optimus Prime! I feel so sorry for Bumblebee though. I am sooo glad he didn’t die in the movie!

Shrek the Third is a bit disappointing though. I didn’t quite like the storyline this time. I didn’t think it was hilarious compared to previous two releases. I still love Donkey and Puss and yeah, those little Donkey dragons and little cutesy ogres! I guess, they were running out of story lines. Not sure if they are gonna make Shrek 4 but if they do, I hope that they will have something more hilarious scenes and more great punchlines! What ever happened to comedy this time?

Thanks to all of you who visit my site and read my blog entries (just wishful thinking here). Also, to my fellow bloggers Rhapsody and Girl Interrupted, thanks for tagging me and I will have my reply soon. Okay, I’ll do blog hopping now.